Hello Gentle Reader
2020
began with strong expectations. By the end of January and concluding in the
final weeks of February, there were impressive impressions that life had
properly adjusted into something rewarding and substantial. Gone would be the
mundane ennui of the tedium and monotony of what life had become. Finally, with
a career—a profession—there would be rewards to reap, purpose to have,
fulfillment at long last. By the beginning of March, the peripheral pneumonic
disease affecting China in January, had spread west, ripping through Iran and
Italy with viral fanaticism. March became the month in which everyone
understood the situation had evolved from a footnote in the east, to a
certifiable global pandemic. New terms entered the language of the public
domain: new reality, lockdowns, outbreaks and quarantines. Uncertainty spread
faster then the disease, which had yet to make landfall; with but a few cases
beginning to develop. The plan at the time to contain and disinfect, to ensure
no community transmissions were taking place. Ideal, but impossible. Within
weeks and months, community transmissions had taken place. Soon the definition
of essential and non-essential was weighted, measured and balanced. Those
deemed luxuries or convivences at best were ordered to shutter and close down
for as of yet unspecified period of time. Those deemed essential were to carry
on providing their products and their services. Thankfully my profession and
sector of work was deemed essential, and it was business as usual. Yet with all
aspects of human behaviour which is fickle and capricious, the economy quickly
tanked. The uncertainty of whether or not, my new found hope in my long waited
for new profession quickly fell apart. Work had all but slowed to a grinding
halt. Being the newest employee meant by implication alone my head was never
far from the guillotine. As other employees were laid off en masse, I was
routinely spared the slaughter; though just beyond the plastic sheets and
chicken wire, one could hear the butchery of the others. The outrage, the
defense, the anger, the resentment. Regardless as human resources hung up their
bureaucratic clever, with another life all but reduced to carnage and blood on
the floor, they retreat to the shadowy recess they call their realm, only to be
heard from again when they send out yet another copy and paste memo e-mail,
stating the organizations response to the pandemic; never mentioning the
bloodshed that had taken place earlier. Day by day, week by week, the question
persisted: how long until my neck is placed on the butcher’s block. Will I to
provide a defense? Show anger? Will I protest with outage? Will the aftertaste
of resentment leave me embittered? Yet, day by day, week by week, my neck was
spared the block; though the cleavers metallic glimmer continually flashes
throughout the office. As any human resources professional would say: sometimes
it is more appropriate to rule by fear, more so than anything else.
There
is a curiosity with slaughter though. Call it pragmatism or opportunisms, those
lined up behind the wiring intently listening to the butchery taken place out
of sight in the back stages in the theatre of cruelty, beneath the malicious
light of Artauds scalpel eye, a new dramatic set of events is set to unfold.
All of those penned up for slaughter begin the process of treachery. Its
survival now. One must save their hide for another hour, day, week or years to
come. In their enclosure shoulder to shoulder, they begin their embittered
battle to sustain themselves over those in the same predicament. How they
clamour for air. Willing to trade another’s life to sustain their own. There
are no hard feelings in these situations. Circumstances demand both sacrifice
and homicide; whichever makes the culling easier. One cannot help but praise
the nefarious, devious and predicable manner in which people will conduct
themselves. Survival is a singular affair. Its not a communal effort. Under the
correct conditions’ civility can be set aside. During the beginning of the
pandemic, there were routine calls for comradery, fraternity and good will.
Those notions now deemed sentimental, have been replaced by the desire and
demand for singular subsistence, at the cost of those so-called brethren. As
they say: when the chips are down, take your neighbours.
Since
the spring there have been routine announcements listing the waves of
executions. Extensive lists of names routinely laid out the recently departed.
They may as well have been anonymous. Without connection or association, they
meant nothing; but within those lists was always enough space for your own.
Within an undefined time, one knew the possibility of their name being etched
within the white space. The finality seals the deal. The punctuating measure
turns possibility to tangibility, before becoming reality. As the spring
slaughter burned into the summer slaying, and then ripened into the autumn
harvest, one noticed the announcements had stopped. Obviously human resources,
exhausted from their extermination had deemed it inconsequential to refer to
the forced exodus. Their function as recruiters and executioners is enough.
There is no need for routine advertisements parading the recently departed.
Meanwhile the butchers block remains shows fresh coagulation. The culling
continues. Whispers slither up and down the hallways of the office. Slinking
shadows murmur yet another name. In hushed tones these discussions take place
in corners, behind closed doors, outside and afterhours. The goal is to always
remove suspicion away from prying eyes, snooping noses and eavesdropping ears.
All attempts to avoid suspicion are exercised. All the while treachery as a
form of survival unfolded around. It’s a sadistic device, employed in prior
eras of qual brutality. Why waste the resources, the equipment and the effort
to kill off the herd, when the masses are capable of doing of slaughtering
themselves? Just like the kapo utilized by the Nazis in their concentration
camps, an organization can devise its own workforce to turn upon itself. To
tear it limb from limb. To root out and purge in its own ranks with extreme
prejudice what is deemed weak; what is deemed inessential; what is designated
disposable. If one is not living through it or experiencing it first hand,
there would almost be admiration to this social engineering. The way in which
it is efficiently crafted, deployed and executed. How each piece and pawn moves
with calculated effort, causing maximum destruction with minimal effort.
Just
as treachery is a survival technique, so too is tenacity. Tenacity is an
indomitable resource. Despite routinely threatening that its exhausted and
running on empty; what should be a finite resource finds supernatural reserves
in which to carry on. And so, you do. Pushing back against the current. Defying
the storm. Weathering forward and onward. Never loose tenacity is a rare bit
advise when faced with continued adversity. Treachery slithers and hisses
around. It provides relief through opioid like transactions. Each cost equals
greater penance. To watch the others, turn with such avarice upon one another;
to claw, tear and snare. It’s a sickening sight. One riddled with
disappointment and even pitiful understanding. Their abject behaviour a product
of careful circumstance, ambiance and instinctual prodding. Yet tenacity proves
survival in the intermediate, even when the slurs slings and slanders find
their target. Despite it all though, tenacity does not make the process easy or
enjoyable; rather it becomes routinely exhausting, and increasingly apathetic.
With each blow, strike and assault to one’s character, there is a deepening
sense of apathy, and increased desire to flee the situation. Surely once again
there must be a greener pasture; some hope, some sign, some opportunity to look
forward to. So, once again the resignation and search begins anew. Though at
this time I have been spared the butchers block and cleaver, the situation
grows increasingly dire.
The
year 2020 has been perhaps the most unprecedent and destructive year of recent
memory. The pandemic has shown societies ability to come together, if only
temporarily. The human conditions capacity for division is endless; perhaps due
to the historical precedence of division being an anthropological component of
society and social relations. 2020 has brought forward a lot of reflection. It
has confirmed frailty. Contemplated isolation and alienation. It has undermined
social structures. Tested political ideology as a cure all. While demanded
medicine and science be at the forefront of the discussion regarding how to combat
the disease. Overtime appreciation has been replaced with exhaustion.
Exhaustion evolves into malcontent, and we all know where malcontent and
discord will lead to from there. This winter is set to be darker, colder and
longer, but it too will subside to spring, which blossom into summer, before
ripening and reverting into autumn. At the very least, the year 2020 has been
one of many lessons. The most important being: the case study regarding The
Curiosity of Slaughter.
Thank-you For Reading Gentle Reader
Take Care
And As Always
Stay Well Read
M. Mary